Archives For August 2006

It’s almost the end of the first full week of classes, and I think it has been more stressful on me than pretty much any week since last fall. Not because of classes, but because of a lot of personal issues. I’m still fighting with someone who used to be a good friend, but I’m not so sure how intact our friendship is anymore. I’m dealing with feeling rejected and bitter, and also feeling really alone. I don’t feel like I connect to most of the people I was good friends with last year.

Nights are the hardest for me when I’m not doing anything, but everyone else is. It feels like a slap in the face to know most of my friends are out doing something, but the only reason I know about it is because of an away message. That is really one of the worst things, and it also clears up how another friend of mine has felt in the past.

It’s been a long week of mental anguish, painful stress, bitter emotions, and fear of loss. I’ve tried coping with the problems, and I’ve tried ignoring the problems; those only delay a return of the issue. I don’t know if I’m to blame for all of this, or only part of this. And I don’t know what to apologize for, if anything. I feel like everything that has happened has been my fault, but at the same time I don’t feel like it is my fault, but I’m just being blamed for it.

back to school

August 23, 2006 — Leave a comment

At this time, school starts tomorrow. I moved in on Friday and have been busy since then settling in (I have a ton of stuff apparently and it took a while, and I’m still not done) and working. I haven’t done much socializing yet. Hopefully by the weekend I’ll get to see people for more than a few minutes at a time. I’ve done a lot of hours at the event center making some bucks before school gets in the way of that. I’m excited about this year beginning, and also more nervous than I was last year as a freshman I think. I’m not sure why either. It could be because I’m living more on my own than last year and it’s just some new responsibilities that I have to develop. More later, maybe. I have to go eat breakfast now since I go to work at 9:30.

El Salvador report

August 7, 2006 — Leave a comment

Here are the quick facts:

  • One new swing set consisting of 8 swings and a platform to sit/play on in the middle
  • Two large picnic tables and three smaller ones for the kids
  • Over 1000 people seen by our doctors and dentists at clinics
  • Mayor of Santo Tomas has donated land for a free clinic to be built in connection with My Father’s House International and a medical school in the states

On Thursday we held a clinic at a hacienda on the beach in El Salvador. (I’ll put a link to pictures here soon). This isn’t your regular touristy kind of beach where we are. The undertow can be fatal, the sand is littered with trash and rocks and hermit crabs. We were there late and watched the sun going down behind perfect palm trees and listening to waves. And eating Pollo Campera–the best chicken in the world.

On Friday I went to La Casa for a few hours before leaving with the group that was flying home Friday afternoon and Curt and Oscar (both locals). Curt was taking me and Oscar out to La Finca early to help get ready for the kids to come out for a cook-out and to play on the new swings for the first time. It was great watching them arrive. Before the final touches were even finished and the tools were put away, kids were playing on the swing set. We had hotdogs for lunch and spent about three or four hours up there. It’s an amazing piece of land with a terrible access road. From the very top you can see part of the Pacific Ocean and the other way it’s just mountains and orchards. And there was a great breeze the whole time almost.

After we left La Finca we went back to the orphanage for a bit where we put a lot of kids down for naps and then told others goodbye, thinking it was our last time to see them before leaving. This year I got a hug and a kiss from one of the younger girls, who happened to be the one that kept telling her younger sister Claudia to stay away from me, I think, because I wasn’t Justin. I’ll learn enough Spanish to take care of that problem next time I go back.

On Friday night word went around that Gary was willing to take a few people back Saturday morning before we had to leave. I quickly said “Yes, I’ll go” because I had had limited time with the kids this year. We spent about an hour and a half there before leaving again. On the way, Gary drove us by the site were the house that started the La Casa de mi Padre project all began.

This year a lot of the kids seemed different: in good and bad ways. Some seemed more introverted, other more outgoing. One kid even got to my dad’s heart so much that when he was telling the story about it Saturday morning at worship that he choked up a little. In all the time I can remember of the last 19 years, I don’t think I’ve ever heard my dad choke up when speaking.

I can’t wait to go back.

We are alive. And we are in El Salvador. Got in Sunday afternoon and we were really tired when we got here after not getting much sleep in the previous 24+ hours. We didn’t go to the orphanage on Sunday night like we normally would because we got here later than normal I think. I went to bed around 8:50pm (which is two hours behind EDT).

On Monday I went out to a small community where we operated a clinic for about six or seven hours. I was “crowed control” at the front door and escorted people back to a doctor when one was free. We saw about 250 people that day. On Monday night I went to bed around 9:30pm I think.

On Tuesday I went with three adults guys and two younger teens to a local missionary’s house where we worked on building wooden swing sets and picnic tables in the road in front of his house that are for La Finca, The Farm. This is where the new orphanage complex will be built. That night I went with some people back to the orphanage after getting dinner to watch a movie with the younger kids while other people went the older kids to a movie theater.

On Wednesday I worked on the tables and swing sets again. Today I left the building team to go to another clinic to get more video/picture footage. I do a video after each trip, which in the past were just picture montages, but this year I’m trying to do one with video, so I had to go somewhere other than Curt’s house to get footage.

Tomorrow I’m going to La Casa de mi Padre to spend the last full day with the kids and get more video of them playing. Hopefully I’ll get to go out Friday afternoon with them to a cookout on The Farm. On Saturday we’ll be packing up and heading to an artisans market and the airport sometime after lunch. We’ll get to Dulles around 10:30pm, or later, and back to Roanoke by 4:30am, hopefully earlier.

I know there aren’t a lot of details there, but like I said in the title, just a quick update on what we’ve been doing.